Distance. It can mean life or death.
The smothering of someone can cause a push back from where you thought you could be, or it could be just what you need. Or the distant someone who won't allow any form of closeness apon them. Either way it could be good or bad.
I feel like most times I am a walking contradiction. I talk about wanting close friends, but I hate being around too many people. I want a relationship, but I like my time alone. I don't think I'm asking for too much, but at the same time I don't want to burden people with my issues and needs. The cycle of feeling lonely and needing people and then being happy while being alone is a weird one. And honestly sometimes I don't even know what I need. But I am grateful for the friends that I have that continuously are there for me even when I don't want or need them there. They support me unconditionally and I seriously love that.
I just do not know what I will do when I have to move away or if I lose them. I think that might break my little heart. But I know that with these guys distance will be no obstacle. :)
The smothering of someone can cause a push back from where you thought you could be, or it could be just what you need. Or the distant someone who won't allow any form of closeness apon them. Either way it could be good or bad.
I feel like most times I am a walking contradiction. I talk about wanting close friends, but I hate being around too many people. I want a relationship, but I like my time alone. I don't think I'm asking for too much, but at the same time I don't want to burden people with my issues and needs. The cycle of feeling lonely and needing people and then being happy while being alone is a weird one. And honestly sometimes I don't even know what I need. But I am grateful for the friends that I have that continuously are there for me even when I don't want or need them there. They support me unconditionally and I seriously love that.
I just do not know what I will do when I have to move away or if I lose them. I think that might break my little heart. But I know that with these guys distance will be no obstacle. :)